02/02/25

God helped me see where I had fear about praying for other people - I feel filled with faith now to see miracles in Jesus' name. God showed me where I had become silent and where I shrink back and compare myself but I feel empowered to be bold and courageous now instead.

Freedom from disliking myself.

Healed of self hatred, self harm and shame. Heard from isolation. I can trust again- something I thought was impossible.

Jesus healed me emotionally, recovering joy and excitement to a level I haven’t felt for over a year. As well as set me free from thoughts of uselessness.

Last night I felt like I got a lot of healing from shame. God revealed a lot of the word and phrases that go around my head and took the power away from them. I feel lighter and more able to ‘be me’ and not hide.

Everything feels lighter and less fuzzy in my head.

I’ve always had a pain in my chest/ heart and the moment I got baptised it went.

Last night I went up for deafness/ blindness to the Holy Spirit. Repented of lots of things. I feel like cobwebs and dust have been blown away.

After a year of unemployment, applying for hundreds of jobs, rejections and unsuccessful interviews, 2 weeks ago I got offered a job! The past few weeks Sunday messages encouraged me to pray for this miracle with shameless audacity and for the details too, not just any job. I’m starting on 3rd June and I’m very excited. Thank you for praying for me.

26/01/25

I'm doing well and have felt a huge weight shift. Without necessarily thinking about it, I am feeling so much more like the person I'm made to be. 
I'm generally just feeling happier and peaceful as well as incredibly strengthened and resilient.
I have a belief in myself like I haven't really felt before.

02/02/25

This week I experienced lies of accusation from the enemy over my identity/my mind/my family. During the service I felt Jesus highlight these with a picture of fish hooks one my inside. 
As I praised I felt these loosen and I used my voice to repent of any agreement and proclaim truth. I then had a picture of 'Saul's armour' being taken off.

02/02/25

As Betsy preached about fear, God revealed a subconscious fear that is let take control without realising. As we prayed, I felt God wash the fear away with my tears. In the next week at work, two people took me aside to tell me how much more confident I was, thank you Jesus for more freedom! I know he promises to finish what he starts and this week as I said who He is out loud, I felt more pressure lift. I feel so much lighter and more able to speak as the person God intended me to be. I pray and trust this will only continue.

As I was in the service my ears became blocked and I couldn’t hear properly. Betsy then called people forward to be unblocked to see and hear God and my ears unblocked. I also felt like God breathed new life into me, where I had felt like to was struggling to breathe properly.

A fundamental layer of shame broke off. I got to the point where the enemy told me I was rubbish and worthless. I could with great confidence tell it to go away and that it wasn’t true.

After yesterday’s ministry  i came out and felt clean- almost like a second chance. As I felt like I was being cleaned there was pins and needles through my whole body.

Before Saturday night I hadn’t cried in a long time and I felt emotionally and physically blocked up and had been quite unusually angry and annoyed. Then Jesus healed me and I cried and felt the joy of the lord deep within my heart.

I have been living mostly in my head. Occasionally with enough build up, a wave of emotions would be released and then close again. Jesus started a journey of revealing areas of long term unprocessed sadness and bringing full feeling back up. 

All Weekend I struggled with hayfever which triggers my asthma. My nose was constantly blocked and breathing through my mouth was extremely resistant. I prayed for healing and nothing happened so i prayed again and again to no avail. Betsy talked about the man with shameless audacity had got him what he needed so I prayed one more time. During the last worship. My nose was cleared and my breathing was easier. I know there is more healing to receive but i am grateful for what I was given.

I was honestly dreading last nights meeting I was tired and it all just felt too big and complicated, I didn’t know where to begin. I walked in to the session with a headache and a stomachache. 2.5 hours later the time had flown by, all my tiredness and pain had gone. I felt peace and hope and like the fog of confusion had gone. Thank you Jesus.

I had a re-remembering / realisation of the separation of the things I do from the person I am. I am a child of God and he loves me. And whatever I do or have done doesn’t change that.

Felt a cloud almost confusing my thoughts lift and beard Gods voice so clearly without any doubt or confusion. 

Jesus refreshed my understanding (lack of understanding) of his size and sweetness and power.

Recently I have been worrying a lot about where I will go in the future and who I am supposed to be. As I was being prayed  for I felt like and needles all over my body and it went through my toes up into my head and left. I feel like all the worry was leaving and that God knows what he wants me to do with him. 

After repenting again I felt so much lighter and just kept swing a white light/ whiteness- felt like it was representing me in that moment. I felt excited to be worshipping and happy to just sit and wait in Gods presence.

Something that God did last night has given me courage to speak about Christianity to my friends.

Since August my body has hurt to the touch, I’d dread doing the simplest tasks because even opening a door was painful. During worship on Saturday night, my body felt lighter and pain free! I was able to just exist without being uncomfortable and in pain. I was also able to stand and worship freely all evening because of this.